seems i'm getting out of control . feels like i'm running out of soul . i'm seeing lights . so i speaking right and breathing life . i predicted all my recent plights . i'm exhausted . trying to fall asleep . i'm lost inside my recent fight . it burdens on my shoulder, now . burning all my motors down . inspiration drying up . motivation slowing down . tired of all wardrobe changing . playing all these different spirits . living off these separate souls . point of life is getting hollow . can't wait for the exit hole . give me room to entry wound . let me in or let me go .

Sep 11, 2010

from my lappy's diary last year

"strength is about how well u hide the pain"


.fall in lurve 0r fall in hate. .get inspired 0r be depressed. .ace a test 0r flunk a class. .make babies 0r make art. .speak the truth 0r lie and cheat. .dance 0n tables 0r sit in the c0rner. .life is divine cha0s.embrace it. .f0rgive y0ur self.breathe. .and enj0y the ride. . just wanna be al0ne . just wanna tke a little breather . cause lately all we d0 is f8 . n evry time it cuts me deeper . cause smthng's chnged . eu've been acting s0 strnge . n its taking t0ll 0n me . its safe 2 say dat i'm ready 2 let eu leave . with0ut eu,i live it up a little m0re evryday . with0ut eu,i'm seein' myself s0 differently . i didn't wanna believe it then . but it all w0rked 0ut in the end . when i watched eu walk away . well i nvr th0ught i'd say . i'm fine with0ut eu . .

 
Falling down erasing memories u gave 2 me.. I can’t take diz pain coz I’m dying.. I can’t close my eyes coz I’m crying.. i think I’m going insane.. 



it safe 2 say 'we are besfren' rite?? so much tanxs 2 eu dear
i'm better off without eu~