seems i'm getting out of control . feels like i'm running out of soul . i'm seeing lights . so i speaking right and breathing life . i predicted all my recent plights . i'm exhausted . trying to fall asleep . i'm lost inside my recent fight . it burdens on my shoulder, now . burning all my motors down . inspiration drying up . motivation slowing down . tired of all wardrobe changing . playing all these different spirits . living off these separate souls . point of life is getting hollow . can't wait for the exit hole . give me room to entry wound . let me in or let me go .

Aug 31, 2012

Lesson learned. Girls, if a guy truly loves eu, he wont give millions of reason to deny that eu are his, he don't have to keep eu as a secrete or denying that eu both are dating. He will admit that eu belong to him, even if eu are not officially married to him, and plus he is not shy to tell the whole world that eu are his girl, more important is that he is accepting eu just the way eu are. So, as am abt to tell ya here, I've found a guy who is proud to have me, who actually try to make me feel happy, i called him as 'jemmi' and am happy that he turned out to be wayyyy muchhh wayyy better than my ex (am not saying that he's the best, because i dont set myself to always trust a guy and i dont put 100% trust n hopes on any guy..i dont hv the guts to do so~ again n again in life. its okay to make mistake, but not to repeat the same mistake again n again.. but still.. i wont give up on tryin).. life is unexpected, we cant predict what will happen in the next chapter of life.. thats why i decided not to make an official relationship status on fb nor twitter.. i just wana see how far it will go.. (i mean, my r/ship with him) I could finally say, I've found a guy who truly loves me like my late herol did. Even one of my bestfren said that she is happy that Jemmi turned out to be the kind of guy she want's me to be with. 

i've got to know him since last year, in June.. in Genting Highland when i was doing my part-time job under the same company with him. he starts approaching and contacting me since last february, yea in this year.. i'm not really sure how it goes at first but all i can say, the way he treat me is just the same way even until now.. and even much better in here and now. i see nothing is changes. he is a nice guy (yea this is all i can say at this moment, who knows whats next).. Its been 8months.. i dont know if i was enchanted to meet him.. but am glad that he still with me in ups and down. 

So there you have it. How I came to know my new love. He kind of have this bad boy vibe going on, but trust me, when eu get to know him. His actually a real sweetheart. Honestly, am trying to get use to him and learn about him still, Jemmi is older than I am. Owh, his actually 5 years older than I am. I know, too young, but hye, age doesn't really matters right? As long as both really love each other. am still have a long way to go still, he's not rushing me.. so I'm just leaving things to fall together with time. =) 

Aug 12, 2012

young n wild in mixx