seems i'm getting out of control . feels like i'm running out of soul . i'm seeing lights . so i speaking right and breathing life . i predicted all my recent plights . i'm exhausted . trying to fall asleep . i'm lost inside my recent fight . it burdens on my shoulder, now . burning all my motors down . inspiration drying up . motivation slowing down . tired of all wardrobe changing . playing all these different spirits . living off these separate souls . point of life is getting hollow . can't wait for the exit hole . give me room to entry wound . let me in or let me go .

May 26, 2011

gonna mish eu my inang :( :( :(









Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye my love
I can't hide, can't hide, can't hide what has come
I have to go, I have to go, I have to go and leave you alone
But always know, always know, always know that I love you so, I love you so, I love you so

Goodbye cat eyes, goodbye for now
Goodbye sunshine, take care of yourself
I have to go, I have to go, I have to go and leave you alone
But always know, always know, always know that I love you so, I love you so, I love you so

La-lullaby, distract me with your eyes, la-lullaby
La-lullaby, help me sleep tonight
La-lullaby, la-lullaby, la-lullaby

I have to go, goodbye, I have to go, goodbye, I have to go, goodbye, and leave you alone
But always know, goodbye, always know, cat eyes, always know, goodbye, that I love you so, I love you so
Goodbye, lullaby, I love you so, goodbye
I love you so, goodbye, cat eyes
I love you so, goodbye, I love you so..
I love you so

Goodbye cat eyes
Goodbye my love

GemOx Tiut hehe..sdey sial..no more eu besides me anymore..ta dew kwn na ciom2..plok2..cite2..jenjalan..bitching2 da..sgt amt tramat trsangat sdey..

Imperfect Astamixa titew sanadd sedey la.. =...( nnt memalam kite nanes2 sowang2.. sape nk pkaikan kite cool fever sume nk bedtime story nan kite nk terkinja2 dpn mtv show, nk jogging sesame pepagi bute nk mkn nan kite siang mlm nk memekak kroke dlm kete, nk express everything heart-to-heart nan kite nak g pavi 8 kali smnggu nk sit up nan kite sblum tdo n etc.. huhh =,='

GemOx Tiut huh..tu lah..sgt tao..sape lah na tmn aku dga dafi melalak..mbebel..sape na bsuh kn panties aku..sape na mkn megi sme2 kt tmpt kje..sape na buangkn smph kt klinik..sape na suggest aku na pkai ape pg2..huarkkkkk...no more eu no more smile laugh everyday of my life,ma heart can possibly break..when eu not besides me anymore..

Imperfect Astamixa homaigod... tears like running out T_T nnt kite inbox2 curhat2 cam biase k... x pon nnt aq dtg batu cave sna jmpa sma kao k sygkuh.tuh la, plng sedey da x dpt cucikan panties ko lagik =..( n x dpt menonton tayangan free lepas naek mandi heh sedey2 xley na ckp bebanyak sedey bah!! goodbye lullaby ;( :( :( 

May 25, 2011

dinner at kde ampang with crown directors & directors

saya hanya memakai baju yang sama ke kerja sehingga malam kerana saya mata tidak larat untuk ber'vogue2'.. saya bekerja seperti biasa dan pulang awal kerana saya harus mengikut bos saya pegi dinner malam semalam.. saya sempat lepak meminum di kedai mamak pada petang semalam.


pada jam 8 kami terpaksa rush ke KDE di ampang kerana agak terlewat dan saya tidak sempat men 'touch-up' diri saya yang kelesuan ini.




majlis tamat pada pulul 12 dan saya berasa sangat tidak larat pada waktu itu seperti mahu rebahkan diri ke atas lantai. namum begitu saya sempat menangkap beberapa foto sebagai kenangan.
alhamdulillah...
i feel better after goin thru few theraphy..
n i have to take 9 types of medicine for every 15minutes..everyday..
n i've been thinking, how to go UP there..?
who wants to take care of me??..
nvm, i'll take care myself. -_-'

May 24, 2011

last sunday

i've met Emmet Massacre by Fall last sunday.




May 20, 2011

no feeling

i dun love you.
i dun love anybody.
i just love myself.
i just want to get myself back.
my old me.
who can live without love.
btw, cindy.. i love eu.
n also our family.
nevermind.. 
i'll keep everything in my heart.
my cindy cipom.. i wish eu were here..
its okay..
please dont forget me owh..
takde satu hari pun dalam hidup ni mama hidup tanpe fikirkan eu all..
mama wont cry.. look!! mama smile larh. :)
i can live myself..
dont forget to pray for the happiness of ur papa n his new gf huh??
yes.. dats my child! hehe.. imy.

<3 sweet mama :)



2nd song for today.. TEEN TOP?

To him.. tanxs fer giving me diz sweet song~ ^_____^ uhm..actually.i dun really know wut to say~ haha... just. TANXS. btw, i wont trust diz. tq babe. eventho eu're so nice to me.. but, my heart saying diz to me "dun trust guy, they're such a shit talker".. n yes.. i jst  listen to my heart one by one..... well.. i jst talk to myself~


1st song fer today :) tq

He gave diz song to me.
At first glance, there was a connection between you and I
Love me love me love me love me love me baby
We secretly exchanged messages
Tell me tell me tell me now
Guys look at you and drooled
Love me love me love me love me love me baby

Caught up in your innocent glamour
Show me show me show me now
Why do I hear your breathing as if it’s a spell
There’s no way to avoid you, you amazing person

O.K girl, I’m all yours, yes man
I’ll do everything for you
O.K girl, from now on, I’m yours
I love you
I’m your man (You’re my woman)
You have all of me forever
From head to toe, I love you

As if caught up in a fantasy
As if having everything
Even time seems to stop
I wanna get yours be mine (so hot)
Cute fox, I can’t resist your sweet temptation
I heard a weep and it’s not cool
I’ll protect you forever

I’m searching everywhere for you
Love me love me love me love me love me baby
Come out from wherever you’re hiding
Tell me tell me tell me now
Why do your footsteps drag on like magic
I can’t get my head straight, you amazing person

O.K girl, I’m all yours, yes man
I’ll do everything for you
O.K girl, from now on, I’m yours
I love you
I’m your man (You’re my woman)
You have all of me forever
From head to toe, I love you

I need you I’ll never let you go
After I whispered ‘I love you’, I feel shy whenever I see you
I’ll never wanna leave you, liss me now
A shy girl like bubble-gum
The popular you makes me unsettled
You! It’s a happy scream

O.K girl, I’m all yours, yes man
I’ll do everything for you
O.K girl, from now on, I’m yours
I love you
I’m your man (You’re my woman)
You have all of me forever
From head to toe, I love you

O.K girl, I’m all yours, yes man
I’ll do everything for you
O.K girl, from now on, I’m yours
I love you

May 19, 2011

hajar, emma n me !!




hajar, emma n me !!
we went to the curve, watched the curve fashion show~ watched 'seru' movie, hang out, talk n laugh, do some camwhore, we had a meal together at popeye.. gossiping n etc~ huhu... lucky i have them <3 we used to share our probs.. gud n bad.. happy n sad.. everything~ heart-to heart~ huhu.. n i wish to go out with them again next time. :) :) :) btw, i heart them so much !!! they were such a nice besties for me !! :)

May 16, 2011


I… still… can’t… get over you 
I never forget… Boy I never forget…. 
  Can’t remember how many month it has been since we broke up 
But I cry every time when I think about eu 
Why am I so eager to see eu today?... 
The sound of rain droplets leaves my heart shaken up. 

  I regret giving eu my love 
I regret getting attached to eu 
I regret holding eu back 
Why do I have to face the pain alone...? 

I tried to be your only girl 
And did eu ever understand my heart? 
Now its become the compass 
Of broken love 
Tears are flowing down 
And soaks the dry lips 
What should I do, 
Now I can’t erase eu out of my mind

I cried a lot because of eu
I laughed a lot because of eu
I believed in the love because of eu
I’ve lost everything because of eu

I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely
The world without eu has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did eu leave me behind...?

It also rained on dat day
eu’ve stared at me wordlessly
eu’ve stared at nothing else but me
Those trembling gazes,
And the awkwardly forced smile.. =')
Speaks of our separation.

eu’ve told me to leave
And the moment leave
Eu treat me as if I’m insane
It’s just too hard...
Then I cry silently and wordlessly
Cause I want to stay next to eu
My luv is true, wanna go back 2 when I was with eu

I miss you… 
Even in my dreams I’m with eu..
I miss you… Rewind back the time

My heart aches
It’s too much to bear..
And where are you?
having fun with ur new girl..
(I cried a lot)
Heart still crying.. till today..
And it was cruel to me..

=..(

May 13, 2011

morning surprise


diz man named wan rosman~ hahah.. nothing much actually.. he had jst came all of sudden to my workplace diz morning (clinic).. frm damansara to melawati.. yah actually he jst passed by here n invited me to go breakfast. jst bcuz i dint pick up his call, he came into the clinic w/out prior notice. n i was quite surprised at the moment he appear in front me me~ walahh diz guy huh -,-'

May 10, 2011


Lost in the ashes of time,
I can never be back to my life.
I am here with a crying soul
Thinking about our past happy days.

Confusion has captured my heart
Silence have filled my life
Lying on the deathbed,with eyes full of tears
Hoping that you'll be back someday..