seems i'm getting out of control . feels like i'm running out of soul . i'm seeing lights . so i speaking right and breathing life . i predicted all my recent plights . i'm exhausted . trying to fall asleep . i'm lost inside my recent fight . it burdens on my shoulder, now . burning all my motors down . inspiration drying up . motivation slowing down . tired of all wardrobe changing . playing all these different spirits . living off these separate souls . point of life is getting hollow . can't wait for the exit hole . give me room to entry wound . let me in or let me go .

Oct 10, 2010

messed up


U will experience a feeling of complete loss of hope. U may feel angry with your friends/family 'cause everyone keeps telling u it will get better, or they may cut down or insult ur bf and tell u dat u are better off now. Eu feel as if no 1 in the world at dat moment can comprehend the amount of pain n anguish u are in..u do not want 2 hear dat u will feel better soon, or move on. It doesn't seem dat way at all. Eu will dwell on all the memories u once had n wallow in the mere fact dat they are over. All future plans, little or small, are now gone. Any dreams or things dat u had wished 2 experience with dat person is gone, n it is almost impossible 2 accept diz, be with the person dat has both made u feel such incredible happiness, n despair. Eu may look through his post, txt messages, n all, dat they had previously sent u, n the memories flood back n u find despair once more.

[ When heartbroken, u will still experience bits of happiness, however, ur moods n emotions will be on a roller clothing faster. u feel like giving up,n said it so many times, but somehow u just can't. The worst thing I ever had is fall in love with somebody who never love me like I do,its hurt me so much ]