life is like a beautiful melody~ only the lyrics are messed up
i've been living in hell sometimes. i'm so lost ! messed up!~ i dunno wut 2 do with my life.. lolx!~ i just feel so miserable w/out sum1 special. but i'm trying not 2 cry, i'm trying 2 hold on.. i'm trying 2 calm myself.. i'm trying 2 forget abt eu.. i'm trying 2 smile tho it hurts.. n i'm trying 2 be sum1 else.. uhh??? i did any thing just 2 makes me laugh. laugh n laugh~ i'd just live it up, laugh it out, n try 2 love every second of it.
every single day i told myself dat i'm fine, i'm gonna be just OKAY~ i'm gonna get thru diz.. i'm not a mess.. i'm strong!~ i can get eu out of my mind!~ but it all was so wrong~ i cant help it. -,-
see? i'm fine~ is the most common lie i made..
just. just wanted 2 say diz.
all my life.. the person dat i loved gone left me..
not me who's lying,
not me who's cheating,
not me who's leaving..
just unlucky..i'm not blaming guys~